Beginning of year 6, term 2.

the march holidays really wasn't a holiday at all. had math port on my mind throughout but im really glad its our second math port already! :D oh and non-residential band camp till wed, almost half the week gone. It was really pretty bad, considering our games were suddenly cancelled so that left us with only practices, practices. I really still love band alot, but there are times when he can actually make me feel quite useless and that im not important at all, so that really is quite sad. lol

sigh, how can I not understand her feelings when I've been through it too. Really dont know how i should persuade her not to leave. Maybe we're all just too stressed up with our workkk. hahaha.

on a brighter note! TOK PRESENTATION IS OVER!! :D omgoshhhhh unbelievable rights hahah. I have really worked hard for it and i barely had any sleep over the weekends :( this is probably the first ever presentation which i did NOT use a script at all!! lol its so fun thinking of being able to present without reading off a script haha. the teachers were really kind (i feel), esp mr koh cause i somehow had to become the first person to present and he was encouraging me not to feel nervous etc. :DD it really helps alot when your examiner is telling you to relax hahaha. so there goes and although all my practices at home exceeded 10min by alot, like almost reaching 18min, but i managed to speak faster and actually presented in 9min plus! i know its bad that i rushed through, but i really would rather rush through than to not be able to finish my presentation. so whatever grades im given, I would accept it for i tried my best! ((: such a relief that TOK is like officially half done ^^

went over to acjc funfair last sat after band and met up with so many of my sec sch friends, such a nice feeling to see them again :D dinner-ed with liuxin, joey and shixuan and joey was addicted to sucking in helium to make her voice change hahaha omg it really worked!! her voice was suddenly so shu nu hahaha (:

yay just done with my chem design prac. but i still got a whole list of work to do omg. its like never endinggggggg. :( so i shall take things one at a time haha and learn to breathe.

In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. (:

I am enlightened!

I believe that today's really like a crucial turning point of my life. Somehow, I am actually super glad now that i took up IB instead of A levels! :D after all the various overseas universities coming down to our school to give us more information day since it has been careers' day these 2 days, it suddenly dawned upon me that its time for me to be independent and research more on the various universities for my future! There are so MANY choices everywhere and if i do not take the initiative to find out more about them, how am i to make my decision?

If i never joined IB, i wouldn't have opened up my mind to more choices including going overseas to pursue my university education. My choice would only probably narrowed to NUS if i joined the A levels track because it would be really difficult to go to overseas uni since the A levels cert wouldn't be as recognised as IB diploma. Hence i felt that IB really opened up my options and choices! ^^

furthermore, especially today, I met this nice lady who was in charge of the booth for one of the UK universities and i really think that she's very inspiring! Even though we only had a small talk about the medicine course, i felt so so enlightened! Before this, i was actually hesitant about whether i really want to do medicine in uni or is it just because of my family's expectations for me? I wasn't sure if i really had the interest and passion for it, but nonetheless i took up a BCME combi of subjects which means doing a medicine course in uni. However after today, I can be very certain that I really want to do this. I want to study medicine in uni.

She told me about how tough competition is for medicine course (which of course i knew), and hence there would be no scholarship offered for medicine :/ she asked me questions and told me things which was so enlightening, things that i never really thought about before. I realised that besides the academic qualifications(which majority of the people would probably be able to meet the requirements), it is in fact the personality that they would seek and see whether we are really suitable for medicine. Am i self-motivating enough? whats my endurance level of stress? I certainly must recognise the fact that being a doctor, we would surely face tremendous levels of stress and hardship, but would i be able to endure them?

Also, being a doctor, we must surely be reliable and our trustworthiness comes in. If our patients do not have trust in us, how can we help them? Besides that, it is very important that we can empathise with our patients and think in their shoes, we have to be very approachable so that they would feel at ease to talk to us. If i were a patient and i were to see a myself as a doctor, would i be happy to visit this doctor? Hence interaction with the patients are really important! & most importantly, being a doctor is not like any other careers, its a WAY OF LIFE :D

Therefore in short, I feel so enlightened today :D (hahah i even met a neighbour whom i dont know and he wished me "have a good day!" lol it really makes my day too haha)

Awesome, i shall go research on some unis now before going to do my TOK essay which is due tmt!!! hahaha tskk. :X