First official meeting with the newcomers today & it was upsetting. Though all went well in the beginning and i managed to try to ignore the pain in my mouth, as i presented the slides to them, because the wire of my braces was poking my mouth and it hurts like, alot.
Our tradition of having "lo hei" to celebrate CNY as a club today was upsetting. Perhaps today is the most unhappy CNY celebration to me. It wasn't well planned and took a long while to prepare the stuffs and etc. anyways many hiccups happened and she was really angry that made me felt so afraid. Upon being reprimanded by her with the other sec 3s and 4s, i was too ashamed of myself that i dared not look into her eyes but just look down the floor.
What she said was right, and this time round, its the Sec 4s responsibility for this mistake. no, but i think that its my fault. its my negligance that i did not brief the sec 3s what exactly to get and prepare. I took it for granted that they would know what to do because last year, the sec 4s told us, the sec 3s, to prepare everything as well. and i thought that its supposed to be the job of the sec 3s. hence this time round, i did not involve much and passed it all to them. I know that all of them put in much effort for it and i appreciated it loads. Its not their fault that things weren't as smooth for they were not experienced.
I was utterly disappointed with myself as i failed to do my duties well. and i really am. Could not manage to hold back my tears as i felt that i've not done my job well. i cried not because we were being scolded, but the fact that i let her down, let the cca down, and let myself down as well. Words just cant describe how i felt then and even now.
i realised that its not that simple as i thought to be the ceo of this cca. Perhaps it was wrong in the first place to think that i could manage it and accepted the role. I suddenly felt that i was not cut out to take over this position and i even suspected my own capabilities that i wanted to resign from this post.
As compared to how yuexi was when she was the ceo, i could clearly see all my flaws and i highly doubted my abilities. She really is a role model for me to learn from as i felt that she has done a very good job when she was in charge. But its alright, for people learn from their mistakes and gain experience from it. Though i would be stepping down real soon, by the end of term 1, i really hope that i can put in my utmost efforts for this cca which i love alot.
Really sorry and millions of thanks to those who saw me tearing. Appreciated all your concerns and jokes loads ((: anyway, felt thankful to jie too for not questioning me when she saw me crying in silent on the car. She actually thought i was too touched for something or what. But nonetheless, thanks for allowing me to have that quiet time alone to let myself reflect upon everything and calm myself down :]
Till now, i still dont have the mood to study and i have 2 tests tmr. Though i read through and practised questions for both emaths and chem already, but i have not studied again for today. :X I seem to not have spoken more than 10 lines since i reached home and i suddenly feel so quiet. haha, not the usual me. Today has been such a long day and im so tired. It makes it worse to realise that lessons are till 4.15 tmr and i've not studied, and its 11pm plus ://
In conclusion, i feel the need to apologise to the sec 3s and 4s and Ms Tan. Sorry for my imcompetency and sorry for causing ur to be scolded as well. I sincerely hope that things would improve and such situations would not happen again. & of course i hope that the newcomers would still have faith and trust in this cca and everyone of us.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Saturday, January 26, 2008
friday friday~
yeaps its finally friday! :D kept reminding myself its supposed to be a happy day as wad bgp2 and i agreed yesterday hahaha. ended late as usual and decided to go popo hse & stay cause im going sch for A maths extra lesson tmr so its more convenient hehe. Missed the kids loads & they're still as adorable! =)
Then went town to meet biujie & angie cause they were already out shopping! .-. yahs reached there and john was having dinner[or lunch?] with them at HK cafe in Cine. He's so annoying i wanna faint and puke blood already la! hahahaha~! Its the first time i went out to town this year can u believe it?
anyways wanted to catch a movie but nth much interesting hence dropped the idea.. we went to play pool & i managed to get in hahaha. I din play cause was wearing skirt & not fang bian to bend so much lol. so i was like watching them play & john and biujie wanna faint from teachin angie how to play. He even told her tt she hav no talent in it and shld maybe think of other things to do hahaha! :P
then went shop shop around awhile but din manage to get any new year clothes x.X so went back popo hse & im superrr tired. Nights! :D
Then went town to meet biujie & angie cause they were already out shopping! .-. yahs reached there and john was having dinner[or lunch?] with them at HK cafe in Cine. He's so annoying i wanna faint and puke blood already la! hahahaha~! Its the first time i went out to town this year can u believe it?
anyways wanted to catch a movie but nth much interesting hence dropped the idea.. we went to play pool & i managed to get in hahaha. I din play cause was wearing skirt & not fang bian to bend so much lol. so i was like watching them play & john and biujie wanna faint from teachin angie how to play. He even told her tt she hav no talent in it and shld maybe think of other things to do hahaha! :P
then went shop shop around awhile but din manage to get any new year clothes x.X so went back popo hse & im superrr tired. Nights! :D
Thursday, January 24, 2008
O levels results release!
Today is probably the happiest day since the year 2008 started!!! Since last night, i've been feeling very scared already because today would be the release of our chinese paper results.. I really dared not even think of what grade i would be getting because i was afraid to face failure. We countdowned in days, hours, minutes.. and when it was about 1.30pm, i began to really felt the stress and afraid. I felt so blue and padmini even thought i was crying. I am sincerely thankful for all my friends around. Esp my classmates who were not taking higher mother tongue.. they even came up with a cheer to let us relax and encourage us on. I really felt so touched for their effort i almost teared.
That moment finally came and we got all tensed up as we all waited in anticipation. Hugs and good lucks were exchanged and we all wished for the best. while waiting for the briefing to be over and so on, we were so nervous i think i almost stopped breathing. Wad's worse was that chen lao shi was absent as she was unwell and she wasn't here with us to receive our results.. After i received my slip, i saw the grade but was kinda blur about the exact grade and even asked joey to help me see lol. and when she actually told me that i had A1, i literally screamed my lungs out and hugged her and my heart was skipping at a double rate.
Tears then began to flow and i dunno why i could not stop crying. We cried like there's no tmr and i guessed that linda they might have thought that i did badly lol. But anyways everyone was hugging everyone and im so grateful for those around me who gave me support. The thought of the whole situation just now makes me wanna cry again now hahaha.
But its really amazing to know that in our whole chinese class of about 45, all of us had A1s while only 3 did not. I sincerely think that its all thanks to chen lao shi's constant effort she had put in for us. XIE XIE NI LAO SHI!! :D
ohwell, its not only us getting back results cause our seniors were getting back all their results as well. IM SO PROUD OF OUR I&E SENIORS! :DDD they all did extremely well and the top local scorer [yuexi] & top scorer [Chen Xu] came from our I&E!! Not only them, i think all the china scholars did equally as well with numerous number of A1s. I really felt so happy for them as their names were called out for them to go and receive their result slips.. All their efforts paid off and Ms tan told us that they all did very well and most of them had single digits L1R5. =))) They're honestly worthy to be our role models and for us to learn from. Their achievement inspired us and i certainly hope that our CCA would continue to produce all the top scorers.
And of course i wont miss out my sis! She did even better than she herself expected and we're all superrrrrrr glad for her! Finally her efforts and hard work paid off too x))) jie i feel so proud of you! :D
okays so yeap this kinda sums up this happy x10000000000000000000000000 day! :D Now im back to my books again haha cause i still have got social studies and english tests tmr! Have not studied finish yet.. :S
And for everything that i have, i thank GOD for answering my prayers.. x33
That moment finally came and we got all tensed up as we all waited in anticipation. Hugs and good lucks were exchanged and we all wished for the best. while waiting for the briefing to be over and so on, we were so nervous i think i almost stopped breathing. Wad's worse was that chen lao shi was absent as she was unwell and she wasn't here with us to receive our results.. After i received my slip, i saw the grade but was kinda blur about the exact grade and even asked joey to help me see lol. and when she actually told me that i had A1, i literally screamed my lungs out and hugged her and my heart was skipping at a double rate.
Tears then began to flow and i dunno why i could not stop crying. We cried like there's no tmr and i guessed that linda they might have thought that i did badly lol. But anyways everyone was hugging everyone and im so grateful for those around me who gave me support. The thought of the whole situation just now makes me wanna cry again now hahaha.
But its really amazing to know that in our whole chinese class of about 45, all of us had A1s while only 3 did not. I sincerely think that its all thanks to chen lao shi's constant effort she had put in for us. XIE XIE NI LAO SHI!! :D
ohwell, its not only us getting back results cause our seniors were getting back all their results as well. IM SO PROUD OF OUR I&E SENIORS! :DDD they all did extremely well and the top local scorer [yuexi] & top scorer [Chen Xu] came from our I&E!! Not only them, i think all the china scholars did equally as well with numerous number of A1s. I really felt so happy for them as their names were called out for them to go and receive their result slips.. All their efforts paid off and Ms tan told us that they all did very well and most of them had single digits L1R5. =))) They're honestly worthy to be our role models and for us to learn from. Their achievement inspired us and i certainly hope that our CCA would continue to produce all the top scorers.
And of course i wont miss out my sis! She did even better than she herself expected and we're all superrrrrrr glad for her! Finally her efforts and hard work paid off too x))) jie i feel so proud of you! :D
okays so yeap this kinda sums up this happy x10000000000000000000000000 day! :D Now im back to my books again haha cause i still have got social studies and english tests tmr! Have not studied finish yet.. :S
And for everything that i have, i thank GOD for answering my prayers.. x33
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
joey's birthday!
tuesdays are the most relaxed days cause lesson ends the earliest on that day out of the whole week! x)) im so afraid of this coming thursday. i really dare not even think of how my results would be.. i really really hope that i did well.. its thurs, 2pm! ahhh~! :S
anyways, yesterday was JOEY LEE YA WEN's birthday! she's 16 already when others like qianying just turned 15. hehehe. Shared a cake for her in the morning and obviously we are playful enough that there was a mini cake fight and some of us ended having cake on our faces! -.- oh and linda's card was THE BOMB because it was able to fully represent her character. hahaha! as usual its superrrrrrr sick can .-. lol!
Joweeee! haha
G-blk level 4 was our territory! 
the ah-mahs! wahaha! 
anyways, yesterday was JOEY LEE YA WEN's birthday! she's 16 already when others like qianying just turned 15. hehehe. Shared a cake for her in the morning and obviously we are playful enough that there was a mini cake fight and some of us ended having cake on our faces! -.- oh and linda's card was THE BOMB because it was able to fully represent her character. hahaha! as usual its superrrrrrr sick can .-. lol!
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you~~~
happy birthday to you! :D
Joweeee! hahaShe's my closest friend in sec 1 and 2 and i sat with her for sooooo many terms! hahaha. :P She's always the one who bullies people. o.O! But still, she's a good friend indeed hahaha. she would be better if she stops bullying me x))! oh! and i wonder when she's ever going to allow me to delete that fanclub blog!!! tskkk its totally so embarrassing can! haha!
lolol i was just seeing some lower sec pics tat we took and its super funny hahaha!
G-blk level 4 was our territory! 
the ah-mahs! wahaha!
i miss the 2s1'06 loads. :S
Sunday, January 20, 2008
bad bad day
19th Jan 08, Sat:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! :D We went Chinatown point to eat at Mouth Restaurant and celebrate =D us + jurong 99 + edward + esther. Food was rather pleasant and we went to walk walk cause its the first day they lit up the lightings for the celebration of CNY. its not as squeezy as usual cause its the first day. but however it was still counted crowded haha. Oh & i used the bag darren/martin gave for christmas! x)) i must say their taste are improving hehe!
20th Jan 08, Sun:
went 99 hse. bad day. it came when i was unprepared. -.-!! anyways i just kana-ed a virus from angie. shyt laaaaaa!! now i have 3 viruses in my comp .-. aahhhhh bad bad day i dont like. another day then put up the pics. ahhh virus x(
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! :D We went Chinatown point to eat at Mouth Restaurant and celebrate =D us + jurong 99 + edward + esther. Food was rather pleasant and we went to walk walk cause its the first day they lit up the lightings for the celebration of CNY. its not as squeezy as usual cause its the first day. but however it was still counted crowded haha. Oh & i used the bag darren/martin gave for christmas! x)) i must say their taste are improving hehe!
20th Jan 08, Sun:
went 99 hse. bad day. it came when i was unprepared. -.-!! anyways i just kana-ed a virus from angie. shyt laaaaaa!! now i have 3 viruses in my comp .-. aahhhhh bad bad day i dont like. another day then put up the pics. ahhh virus x(
Friday, January 18, 2008
life's still happy
CCA interview for newcomers were fabulous yesterday! Though those i interviewed were rather soft-spoken, i really really love my dearest cca, I&E! x33 When everything is so stressed up, and the day is made bad after a chem test that i realised i dunno how to do them, the whole day gets so restless. But its during cca time that the I&E babies cheered me up in their ways. :D esp the climax part when a poor little sec one girl had to face everyone [all the interviewers of the day] cause she was late for the interview. But i really am awed by her courage to take up the challenge. She could speak up and accept our interview when so many pairs of eyes were on her. It indeed is something for us to learn about. And plus she certainly entertained us alot by her words and actions x))
Books are great if you learn how to appreciate them. but somehow, some just seem boring, very. i rmbed tt i read "tuesdays with Morrie". and i felt that its a very inspiring book and teaches us alot of lessons about life. While reading it, it also allows one to reflect upon their own life and actions. People should read it :D
And due to peers' influence, i read Twilight and New Moon. Though its a rather thick book but its really~~~~ worth the read! =DD Exciting, entertaining, interesting, lovely! and i wanna read Eclipse =] I like Edward Cullen. He rocks. ((:
The world's really small. Angie happens to be in the same sch as YC. totally surprised to realise that while chatting in msn =D haha the way they met is funneh :D & angey u really dun understand what i meant when i say that im so envious of you, i really am. And please dont be up to anything funny. We kinda tested mom and her rxn was very big and serious. im sure u'll noe wad happens if you really do that. .-.
On a lighter note, its FRIDAY! :D today is the happiest friday cause we had quite a few free periods here and there. and 4.15 doesn't feel that long anymore.. (: had health checkup today and lucky for me that my back was straight so i was exempted from those back checkups where we hav to lift up our blouse/shirt. and hey my eyesight is perfect! dont play play~ =D anyways, linda had to do the back checkup and poor her. she went to the left side nurse and she was asked to remove everything. [including her insides!] x.X ahhhs. she came out and began telling us about it and we pitied her though we were laughin about it too. its so....... so...... bad! its okay linda, we understand how you felt..
Books are great if you learn how to appreciate them. but somehow, some just seem boring, very. i rmbed tt i read "tuesdays with Morrie". and i felt that its a very inspiring book and teaches us alot of lessons about life. While reading it, it also allows one to reflect upon their own life and actions. People should read it :D
And due to peers' influence, i read Twilight and New Moon. Though its a rather thick book but its really~~~~ worth the read! =DD Exciting, entertaining, interesting, lovely! and i wanna read Eclipse =] I like Edward Cullen. He rocks. ((:
The world's really small. Angie happens to be in the same sch as YC. totally surprised to realise that while chatting in msn =D haha the way they met is funneh :D & angey u really dun understand what i meant when i say that im so envious of you, i really am. And please dont be up to anything funny. We kinda tested mom and her rxn was very big and serious. im sure u'll noe wad happens if you really do that. .-.
On a lighter note, its FRIDAY! :D today is the happiest friday cause we had quite a few free periods here and there. and 4.15 doesn't feel that long anymore.. (: had health checkup today and lucky for me that my back was straight so i was exempted from those back checkups where we hav to lift up our blouse/shirt. and hey my eyesight is perfect! dont play play~ =D anyways, linda had to do the back checkup and poor her. she went to the left side nurse and she was asked to remove everything. [including her insides!] x.X ahhhs. she came out and began telling us about it and we pitied her though we were laughin about it too. its so....... so...... bad! its okay linda, we understand how you felt..
Monday, January 14, 2008
i miss homecooked food.
School has been fine so far but sec 4 life is really kinda no life haha.
Everyday my mind is filled with homework, study, books, tests, O levels! :X
Today we were so excited talking about mahjong and card games! lolol & we're already planning to go linda's house to play during chinese new year hehehe! :D
Anyways I MISS PLAYING THE PIANO & I MISS HOMECOOKED FOOD ALOT!
Last time i used to drop by at popo hse after school to have lunch and have piano lessons etc. but now, lessons end so late and i dont have a chance to go tat often anymore. Others wont understand how saddening it is to eat out everyday haha. x.X
okay im going to sleep soon hahahs
NIGHTS! :D
Everyday my mind is filled with homework, study, books, tests, O levels! :X
Today we were so excited talking about mahjong and card games! lolol & we're already planning to go linda's house to play during chinese new year hehehe! :D
Anyways I MISS PLAYING THE PIANO & I MISS HOMECOOKED FOOD ALOT!
Last time i used to drop by at popo hse after school to have lunch and have piano lessons etc. but now, lessons end so late and i dont have a chance to go tat often anymore. Others wont understand how saddening it is to eat out everyday haha. x.X
okay im going to sleep soon hahahs
NIGHTS! :D
Monday, January 7, 2008
Happy New Year! its 2008~~
YAY YAY YAY. its the first post of the year though its already the seventh of Jan today. hahah :D ohwells, 2007 have been a fabulous year and many things happened- some good, some bad. but still, i've enjoyed my sec 3 life loads with 3C2'07 & my best friends! thinking back, i've really slacked through the first half of the year and only began working hard at the later part.. =X anyways in short, it has been a GREAT year! x)
Seeing the new batch of sec ones coming in again, i've no choice but to admit that we're oldest students in the school already. its still hard to believe that im already sec 4 now. -.-! since day one of school, almost every single teacher came in and started telling us about how much time we actually have left before my prelims/O levels/SPA tests/class tests etc will arrive. and after deducting the holidays.. we've only abt 100 days to our prelims and if im not wrong, O lvl would start around 20 Oct and end abt 12 Nov. its so gonna be a superrrr fast year for us. (:
Hence after realising how short time we exactly hav left now.. i've got my new year resolutions! First of all, obviously is to STUDY HARD & do well in O levels :DD
Next, im not gonna doze off in class. though i've always tried not to hehhs. xP
Third, enjoy my last year in Crescent [which im sure im so gonna miss..] with all my friends and teachers
Fourth, LAUGH and be HAPPY! :D
seriously, i feel that its impt for us to be "Zhi Zu"/satisfied with wad we have. & not always think that the grass on the other side is greener. thus only by being satisfied with what we have would we be able to cherish it and be happy with it xD
Oh, and anyways, im so glad with myself cause i've really been doing my work seriously and studying. hahaha. & it feels as though im already preparing for final years when its only the first term of school. =.= Another thing is that our timetables are soooo saddening. out of the 5 days, we end at 3.15 for 3 days, 4.15 for one day, and the only earliest is 2.15 on another day. x.X and we have days with 8 subjects?!
But its alright luhhs, cause thinkin on the brighter side, we've more time to spend with our classmates and teachers, and of course the school! lol :D
ohkays, last but not least.. HAPPY 2008 everyone!
Seeing the new batch of sec ones coming in again, i've no choice but to admit that we're oldest students in the school already. its still hard to believe that im already sec 4 now. -.-! since day one of school, almost every single teacher came in and started telling us about how much time we actually have left before my prelims/O levels/SPA tests/class tests etc will arrive. and after deducting the holidays.. we've only abt 100 days to our prelims and if im not wrong, O lvl would start around 20 Oct and end abt 12 Nov. its so gonna be a superrrr fast year for us. (:
Hence after realising how short time we exactly hav left now.. i've got my new year resolutions! First of all, obviously is to STUDY HARD & do well in O levels :DD
Next, im not gonna doze off in class. though i've always tried not to hehhs. xP
Third, enjoy my last year in Crescent [which im sure im so gonna miss..] with all my friends and teachers
Fourth, LAUGH and be HAPPY! :D
seriously, i feel that its impt for us to be "Zhi Zu"/satisfied with wad we have. & not always think that the grass on the other side is greener. thus only by being satisfied with what we have would we be able to cherish it and be happy with it xD
Oh, and anyways, im so glad with myself cause i've really been doing my work seriously and studying. hahaha. & it feels as though im already preparing for final years when its only the first term of school. =.= Another thing is that our timetables are soooo saddening. out of the 5 days, we end at 3.15 for 3 days, 4.15 for one day, and the only earliest is 2.15 on another day. x.X and we have days with 8 subjects?!
But its alright luhhs, cause thinkin on the brighter side, we've more time to spend with our classmates and teachers, and of course the school! lol :D
ohkays, last but not least.. HAPPY 2008 everyone!
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