im confused.

yesterday was speech day celebration so the sec 4s could attend the prize giving ceremony. feels great seeing most of our seniors again after so many months! but din really had the chance to talk to them.. apparently they have done such a good job cos many of them received prizes! :D congrats to linda, sweechen, jesselyn, wendy etc too! (:

perhaps its my special period of the month now so somehow my mood seems weird. not so myself i guess. just ytd, i felt so left out during the whole ceremony in the hall cos i just din really feel like talking and i even sat alone [sort of, cos its not with the group] so i actually wanted to just go home after school but i couldn't make up my mind and ended up going to the library with joey, sc, qy, linda.

cant really focus then & even had to ask linda quite several times to help me with my amaths. haha so i felt quite bad keep disturbing her. sighs. haha im sure none of them knew tat i went to the toilet to cry. so i left the library early and went popo hse cos i din want to be alone at home[mum, dad and ben went out], and seeing the kids would often cheer me up :D

had a bad headache while on the way there but luckily i din faint halfway haha. i must have looked horrible cos even ryan asked if i was very tired the moment i entered the house lol. so i grabbed some lunch, ate panadol and went to sleep..

i confided in jiejie my troubles today & surprisingly she gave me advices too. i think there's no one else i can say all these to except her. thanks loads! jiejie said smth like think of myself as a bead and i need to link and reach out to others before i can form a necklace.. so in conclusion, i need to learn to speak up for myself and be more inclusive. (:

im really grateful for my lovely grandparents! gonggong always cook my favourite food when i come here and popo is always willing to be my listening ear & whenever im unwell, she would be there too! (: of course not forgetting my parents and siblings and cousins! they are all great people who are of utmost importance to me! :D

i must persevere for myself. (:

anyway on a lighter note, HAPPY 18 BIRTHDAY DARREN LOW WEI CAI! :DD

SWEET 16 BIRTHDAY POST! =D

Hello people! today is a veryyyyyyyyyyy special day haha! Guess what. today(2nd july) is JESSICA ONG's sweet 16 birthday! wahaha! ;P it's really been a very memorable birthday for me this year. Right from midnight, gessle sent me 16 smses cos im sixteen! haha. hmm oh, sweechen & the rest tricked me in the morning! i went happily to school & saw a big taka plastic bag on my table! they said i cant see wads inside, neither could i touch it! yeah so i din lah hahah. but as i wanted to do my geog & was about to take my powerpack from e table, i happen to realise my books are gone!

hahaha. so yeah, they actually put my things inside e bag lohs haha. well, i actually expected it to be an empty one. ;P hahaha so the real one came soon. i was super surprised lah!! they bought such a big pink thing for me! :DDD haha! it looked like a toilet bowl! but its not lah, its a very cute portable furry pink chair! they insisted me to try and sit on it & i was so reluctant at first cos i was afraid they tried to prank me lol! but ruyi just pulled me and made me sit haha! its very nice eh haha =))

oh yeah, thanks ruyi, wendy, shiqi, sophia, sweechen, linda, qianying, kristie for ur presents! =D & thanks to everyone who smsed me birthday wishes! loved them loads! ^^ hahaha. oh ya, hmm mr samat took us for PE today! & he asked the class to sing birthday song for me lol. & my legs are very suan from the dance practice now! :/ Ms Goh asked e lit combined classes to sing for me too, i feel so bu hao yi si lahs! haha :D

anw, i was super touched that sweechen baked a chocolate cake for me! QY and her was like fiddling with something on the bench while i was eating during recess & they suddenly brought up a little cake! hahaha. really, i felt very thankful for their efforts cause its the first time someone made me a cake on my birthday! :) thanks woman & people! ^^

After surviving the lit mock test, i went to meet jiejie & ges! hehe. lunched/dinnered then we went to watch the "zohan" movie! :D its my first NC16 movie! wahaha. very memorable right. =D hmmm its quite funny lahs though jie said its not very nice :/ anyway, we were supposed to be on our way home aft the movie but jie suddenly say she hungry so went to buy a small cake from polar! then ges suddenly disappeared lah haha. so yup anyways, they surprised me with the cake!!! & they went through so much trouble cos the cake was bought in front of me so they cant get the candles and fork and knife etc. otherwise i would realise.. oh and ges went to buy a lighter just to light the candles! hahaha. really touching. thanks people! xD

so in conclusion, today has been such a wonderful day cos i enjoyed it loads! wahaha. its the first time i watched a NC16 movie, its the first time someone baked a cake for me on my birthday, & its also the first time someone bought me a cake on my birthday! :D It has been really a memorable sweet 16 this year. THANK YOU! :)

alright, for my birthday resolution this year,
1. Study hard & work hard to achieve my personal target & achievement for Os!!!
2. Love the people around me & always cherish them! :D
3. Stay happy, stay healthy & smile always.
4. Don't spend too much money~, gotta be thrifty haha!

haha i cant think of what else i wanna write! thats it for now~
p.s i shall upload the pics another day when i have the time! ^^ hehehe. & finally, i hope my wishes would come true. :D